It's sooo.. Me!!! (or not?!)

Do you know?
Being a wonderful woman is not easy, especially for me.
Usually I'm just thinking that I should be myself. Confident. Just be your self.
But, hmm.. there are a lot of things beside me that could makes me doesn't confident enough.. especially being myself.

Hey.. it's not my fault, anyway. Hmm.. let me tell you.
First, if your parents always said that "you not as smart as you thought, my child. We better, we smarter than you!" so.. what do you do?
Actually, I'm not thinking that I'm better, smarter, cleverer, or anything than my parents. I know, Know (with the K-capital), that my parents is better than anything. That there are wonderful parents. I know, that they have more of experience than me. I know.. I'm always know.
But you know, as a person, as a woman-wanna-be person, I also have an experience. I also got a principal. I am a 23 years old woman, and I have learn a lot in every hole of my life. I learn about anything. And what I had learn is something that's makes me mature. So, is that wrong that I prefer to believe myself than anything, because I don't want to do something wrong in the last again?
Well, if my parents told something that makes me doesn't confident enough like that.. What should I do? My parents told me like, I can't do anything, because I am not follow what they told. Actually, not like that. I am just follow the flow in my life, with my experience, with something that I had learn before. I don't want to do something wrong again. That's it. Just it.

Second, how if your boyfriend says "hey look, that girls is beautiful" (and his face tell me if I'm not beautiful enough as that girl).
I think it's makes me sooooo.. not confident. Hey, I'm a person who always say that I am Beautiful and than he said to me like I'm not beautiful as Mariana Renata? (a model, oh please..)
Yeah.. It's so disturbing me. Hah?! Compared me with a model? a MODEL??? crazy.. oh boy, you so crazy..

OKAY.. ENOUGH.. STOP.. IT'S NOT SO ME.. PUTRI!!!
Yeah.. I can sad, not happy, or something like that, but thanks God.. it's just a while. I can smile again, I can laugh, and especially drink some coffee and eats some ice cream!!! Hahaha..
Yeah.. why being not confident enough like that?
why should I'm not confident just because my parents doesn't believe me enough? I can do what I want, beside of my experience.. and SHOWS THEM.. that I'm more than what they thinking about..

and why should I'm not confident because my boyfriend likes Mariana Renata?
oh please Putri, she is a model! Of course she must be beautiful, isn't it? Well, actually.. I know that I'm better than her, hehehe.. at least I'm NOT A SMOKING WOMAN like her, HAHAHA...

oh well.. I think I must be a person who doesn't thinking too much about something that could makes me not confident.. being me, myself, PUTRI.. is better than anything..

I Luv Myself..

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